Last Words

I made one last trip down to visit Kericia, having promised the kids I would not forget their Christmas presents a few months ago. Albeit feeling uneasy after not seeing her for almost 2 months, I picked up the courage to walk up to her door step.

This time, she was with the boyfriend. Kericia and I had no more than twenty minutes' conversation before I forced myself to leave. She asked about the girlfriend, and I told her we broke off. Seeing someone else around I made a few casual comments, not wanting to bitch about the ex nor tell her I had been unfair to the ex; for still loving her while I was with someone else.

I asked about her trip to England, she said she would be staying over with some friends for 6 months and I wished her well. Never got a chance to thank her for inspiring me to do better, nor tell her how much I still love her. Guess somethings are best kept in the closet. I said nothing else afterwards and briefly sent myself off. She's in safe hands now, happy as a bird... time to let go I think.

I bid the kids goodbye. "Byebye Max kor kor!" Alicia chirped with a sunshine smile, engrossed with her computer game while Lucia simply said bye without looking at me. "No manners arh!" Kericia chided her off, and Lucia simply smiled with a mischievous look on her face. I was amused, how much she resembled her mom. I would miss the girls, not having a chance to tell them how much I love them or get a hug from them.

I stepped out the door, put my shoes on, looked at Kericia for the last time and smiled. "Take care" I said. She thanked me for the gifts, acknowledging my efforts as a friend to keep her in my heart. We said our goodbyes, and I knew that it would be the very last time we would meet again.