The Next Step

It been barely a year since Mark and Christine went separate ways. . . today, Mark is attached to another woman, not exactly something I had expected. Even though I never knew the story behind Mark and Michelle but I'd gladly give him my best wishes.

I only wonder now if Christine knows about the news. To be frank, this reminds me of another Michelle I knew. It been one year and two months that we've broken up, the last I heard from her was what? Febuary, nearly 6 months ago. Rewind a little further, when we celebrated her birthday last November, just 9 months ago. That fateful night, merely 4 months out of our relationship, she told me she met another man and deeply in love with him. I was shattered.

Fast forward till today. Mark and Michelle.. another Michelle, not the one I know. Back then for me, it was Max and Michelle. Today, it is Mark and Michelle, what a cruel irony. No, not the same woman but same name. I do not know where the Michelle I knew has gone but I miss her still, the last I heard from her she was already engaged to the new man.

Today with this, I've decided it time I move on. I took the first step to pursue a diploma, in order to return myself to where I need to be, therefore the next step must follow. My next wish however is to achieve something extraordinary this year, to pursue a relationship, to go after a girl I've long had feelings for, to finally win her heart after pulling back for so many years. Unfortunately, I'm not sure if we still feel the same way for each other as we did years ago. In fact, I'm not even sure if we had any feelings for each other in the first place. We're both busy people, too tired to be in another relationship, with one single goal in our minds: to pursue our careers. As far as I'm concerned, this may well be a lose - lose situation but it is still all at the end a wish anyways. Just something I'd thought I should keep as a note.