Some of the 'first times' with Jo I don't ever want to forget;
The first time having someone to talk to late into the night on the phone, while I was in reservist.
Her first time at the Beach Road army market with me.
The first time a girl picked out 3 new shirts for me, two purple and one brown tee.
The first time a girl peeled prawns for me.. and put it on my plate. We were having steamboat at Bugis.
The first time we went to the new Zouk, together.
The first time I laid on the floor at Clarke Quay Central, chatting the night away with her.
The first time I stayed out alone with a girl until dawn, and then had duck noodles for breakfast with.
The first time someone tried teaching me how to smoke, also the first time I tried smoking.
The first time a girl took NR3 with me back home.
The first time I had a foot massage, she was with me.
The first time sending a girl to the airport, as her date and picking her up after she got back. Also the first time I took the airport sky train and gave a bouquet of sunflower to a girl.
The first time chatting with her on the phone while she was on her Cambodia vacation.
The first time I had Popeye's..... at Changi Airport terminal 3.
The first time a girl bought me gifts from overseas, that scarf.. the black shirt and the orange tiny tee.
The first time a girl left her things with me, like her contact lens washer, her make up remover...
The first time a girl reminded me of childhood games..and got me to try it out with her.
The first time I had fried crab with salted eggs.
The first time having our Magnum Gold, also the first time I had a taste of Magnum Gold.
Our first time at GV Gold Class. We watched Salt together.
The first time taking a girl out, on an official date.
The first time i tried a fish spa.. and then a mini steamboat with an authentic ma la soup base.
The first time I made Eggs Benedict for a girl, for our brunch.
The first time knowing what a perfect date feels like.
The first time knowing what a kiss should really be like, what a slow kiss is, what a deep kiss is and what a tease is.
The first time I loved a girl with my entire being, my heart and my soul.
The first time I dated a best friend.
The first time I folded origami hearts and stars, wrote a love letter in a bottle for a girl.
First time to be intimidated by a girl 5 years younger
Her first time knowing a guy who loves her wholeheartedly, and accepted all her flaws.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
My Thoughts On Life And Love
"As we all know, life is no bed of roses. Everyone got their own story. We went through same shit differently. We often put on a mask and pretend nothing happened but deep inside we are crying.
Life is so fragile. Today i might be standing here talking to you but i might be gone tomorrow and once gone is gone. We only have one life to live.
One life.. just one.. the question which everyone should be asking themselves is how are you going to live that one life? How to deal with it?
We always need something to believe in like there is a God above, there is a loved one waiting for us, we still have many things yet to accomplish.
A life with no reason is as good as dead. You find life meaningless. How can anyone dunno the reason why he is living? What's your purpose of life? If you still dunno, set yourself a goal. A goal can be anything.. you want to be a millionaire, you want to marry young, you want to travel around the world, you want to watch a WC match live in stadium, you want to attempt sky diving and the list just goes on.
Sometime we feel depressed, lost, confused when we somehow lost the reason to live. There is nothing to look forward to.. Days are long, you hate what you are doing, you just want to sit one corner and rot doing nothing. U wish thing is not like this now. Soon anger consume you. You start to blame thing that had happened, you start to blame yourself, you start to blame people.
Yes, I went through all this and more and i believe there are more to come. Gone are the days when im foolish and angry. Gone are the days when i feel the world own me an explanation why bad things happened to me. Gone are the days when i dunno how to let go.
Since young, i always wanted to be the bad guy. I love violence, brute force, i always wish i have some dark power. Funny thing is, the more i wish for it, the more i can't get it. That was when i slowly begin to understand that to wish for something is actually a curse. Dun wish.. go work for it. Wishing upon something is you just kneel one corner and wish or you go find a lamp and rub on it hoping genie will appear. Wish is just something you want that will just appear out of nowhere.
If you dun do something about it, your wish will never come true. Is like i wish i am the bad guy.. i wish only, but when i try to do bad things, i can't. It was then i realise no matter how hard i try wishing, things wont appear out of thin air nor will genie morph in front of me. If you try to do something to make the wish happen, if it not meant to be it will never happened.. thats why im not singapore most notorious criminal (although i really wish i am back then MUA HA HA HA HA)
As i aged, i grew weak. I slowly slowly hate violence, i no longer wish i have superpower to do bad things not do i wish i have superpower to do good things. I dun want to be my all time fav villain The Joker nor do i want to be Batman. I just want a peaceful life. I dun want to be millionaire, i dun want be poor too... i just want a very normal life.. find someone to love and get loved in returned.... if i can, i would like to retreat to a small little farm somewhere away from the city and really live happily with the woman that loves me...
Dun need to work endlessly just to climb a cooperate ladder. Dun need to get married and realised few years later becoz of our modern lifestyle which depend on $, our marriage fail... so what if i managed to work my way to become a CEO or even the world richest man in the world richest company? So what if i can walked down the aisle and make that wedding vow and signed on the dotted line in the wedding cert that make us married legally?
Hahaha.. you know, talking is cheap. we all know we cant have things to happen exactly the way you want it to be. life is a paradox. Thats where we often come to a corner asking ourselves what do when really want. Where do we go from here. What are we going to do?
Thats where i also learn.. just be it. Let it flow. Dun worry. The more you think, the more confuse you get, the more upset you become so why not just let it go? Im not rich.. so be it. Im single nobody want.. so be it.. im a nobody in the cooperate world.. so be it..
Whats important is, im still healthy, i have many friends, i still got a job, i still have my family, i still have a roof over my head, i still got 3 meals a day. All this make me smile. Anything else is consider a bonus to me, something that will make me laugh..... thats my life
Just trying very hard to be contented"
- Si_Botak, STOMP.com.sg
Life is so fragile. Today i might be standing here talking to you but i might be gone tomorrow and once gone is gone. We only have one life to live.
One life.. just one.. the question which everyone should be asking themselves is how are you going to live that one life? How to deal with it?
We always need something to believe in like there is a God above, there is a loved one waiting for us, we still have many things yet to accomplish.
A life with no reason is as good as dead. You find life meaningless. How can anyone dunno the reason why he is living? What's your purpose of life? If you still dunno, set yourself a goal. A goal can be anything.. you want to be a millionaire, you want to marry young, you want to travel around the world, you want to watch a WC match live in stadium, you want to attempt sky diving and the list just goes on.
Sometime we feel depressed, lost, confused when we somehow lost the reason to live. There is nothing to look forward to.. Days are long, you hate what you are doing, you just want to sit one corner and rot doing nothing. U wish thing is not like this now. Soon anger consume you. You start to blame thing that had happened, you start to blame yourself, you start to blame people.
Yes, I went through all this and more and i believe there are more to come. Gone are the days when im foolish and angry. Gone are the days when i feel the world own me an explanation why bad things happened to me. Gone are the days when i dunno how to let go.
Since young, i always wanted to be the bad guy. I love violence, brute force, i always wish i have some dark power. Funny thing is, the more i wish for it, the more i can't get it. That was when i slowly begin to understand that to wish for something is actually a curse. Dun wish.. go work for it. Wishing upon something is you just kneel one corner and wish or you go find a lamp and rub on it hoping genie will appear. Wish is just something you want that will just appear out of nowhere.
If you dun do something about it, your wish will never come true. Is like i wish i am the bad guy.. i wish only, but when i try to do bad things, i can't. It was then i realise no matter how hard i try wishing, things wont appear out of thin air nor will genie morph in front of me. If you try to do something to make the wish happen, if it not meant to be it will never happened.. thats why im not singapore most notorious criminal (although i really wish i am back then MUA HA HA HA HA)
As i aged, i grew weak. I slowly slowly hate violence, i no longer wish i have superpower to do bad things not do i wish i have superpower to do good things. I dun want to be my all time fav villain The Joker nor do i want to be Batman. I just want a peaceful life. I dun want to be millionaire, i dun want be poor too... i just want a very normal life.. find someone to love and get loved in returned.... if i can, i would like to retreat to a small little farm somewhere away from the city and really live happily with the woman that loves me...
Dun need to work endlessly just to climb a cooperate ladder. Dun need to get married and realised few years later becoz of our modern lifestyle which depend on $, our marriage fail... so what if i managed to work my way to become a CEO or even the world richest man in the world richest company? So what if i can walked down the aisle and make that wedding vow and signed on the dotted line in the wedding cert that make us married legally?
Hahaha.. you know, talking is cheap. we all know we cant have things to happen exactly the way you want it to be. life is a paradox. Thats where we often come to a corner asking ourselves what do when really want. Where do we go from here. What are we going to do?
Thats where i also learn.. just be it. Let it flow. Dun worry. The more you think, the more confuse you get, the more upset you become so why not just let it go? Im not rich.. so be it. Im single nobody want.. so be it.. im a nobody in the cooperate world.. so be it..
Whats important is, im still healthy, i have many friends, i still got a job, i still have my family, i still have a roof over my head, i still got 3 meals a day. All this make me smile. Anything else is consider a bonus to me, something that will make me laugh..... thats my life
Just trying very hard to be contented"- Si_Botak, STOMP.com.sg
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