I Loved You So

I wish it weighed more than three words
As they rest on the tip of my tongue, it still hurts
Your hands smell just like tears

And all I rest on is a bed of fears

Sometimes I wish these days never came
Because now we look back for someone to blame
Forgiveness comforts you to sleep
But all your wounds cut too deep

And then I let you go,
and I let myself fall
I loved you so
Now I know I'm wrong
Because you built my heart and filled it up with soul
I let you go
Now I loved you so
 I let you go
Now I loved you so

It was labelled with a best before date
But then we came back but it was too late
Infatuated with the past, I'm tired
It's been a while what's left is expired

I let you go,
and I let myself fall I loved you so
Now I know I'm wrong
Because you built my heart and filled it up with soul
I let you go
Now I loved you so
I let you go
Now I loved you so

And then I let you go,
and I let myself fall
I loved you so
Now I know I'm wrong
Because you built my heart
Filled it up with soul
I let you go
Now I loved you so

Said I let you go
Now I loved you so
Said I let you go
I loved you so
I let you go
Now I loved you

The Only Thing I Have Left of You

Every night, I still sleep with your tshirt close to me, the one you wear at home; because that is all I have left of you.

In Memory.... of Our Happiness

For the last nearly four years, I haven't been writing. This today, is dedicated to The Wife......

A lot has happened to us and we've been through a lot, thick and thin, in sickness and in health, happiness and sorrow.. we've really had a good run, a good six and a half years. Never once did I regret having met you or having been through whatever we went through.

I'm sorry for the things that finally broke us apart. I really wish it did not have to happen.But, maybe this is another phase for us, maybe not. Maybe we need time to work on ourselves before we perhaps some day reunite, or maybe, this is me letting you go because I love you too much.

I want to chase you back again, but I can't. The day I cannot give you the happiness you deserve is the day I will not do anything. Until I'm done resolving my own problems, I cannot be a burden to you.

Maybe in between you might find someone else, and if that happens, I hope he loves you more than I do. I hope he is much better than I will ever be. Maybe in between something might happen to me, maybe I might even give myself a chance and be with someone else..... I don't know. There are no guarantees. I just hope whatever happens, you'd be happy.

I'm thankful I had you, I'm thankful we were together. I'm thankful for that last six years, even though we had a lot of fights, a lot of arguments, a lot of disagreements. Despite all that, you made me the happiest man on Earth. You were the best thing that happened to me. You were, my everything.

Do I miss you? Yes I do, every living moment, everywhere we've been to, the scent of your shirt, the things you've left behind. There is no way I will forget or want to forget.